My VBA3C – Exploding, Unspeakable Joy
I went to get myself a drink of water, walking from my room to the snack area, past the nurses station.
“Do you know????!!!!” I wanted to tell them. They sat so calmly doing paperwork.
I looked calm on the outside. The inside I was wrecked.
“They told me no. And them over there, told me no too. Along with every other person I talked to. NO!”
But here I was. 24 hours after having my baby. After having my VBA3C.
I DID IT. I fought the battle through my pregnancy and I fought the contractions, the pain, the doubt, the uncertainty.
And here I was on the other side.
No words adequately describe the feeling. Not only did I have a baby. I had a victorious birth. My heart was exploding.
It was redeeming. It was healing. And I didn’t realize how that one day would change my life forever, the life of my family and the lives of others around me.
It was one of the biggest mountains I had ever climbed. But I made it and through it I learned perseverance, strength, character and I *finally* learned that fear was a liar.
That day, three years ago was the best gift I could have ever received. Don’t let fear stop you from what’s ahead. Listen to your heart. Don’t try to reason everything out. Be quiet and let the voice inside of you govern you more than others. Fear has no place. Peace and trust.