I was so determined.
When a negative thought came into my mind, I immediately refused to keep thinking of it.
“What if I can’t do it?” No, I told myself as I purposely refused to align myself with the ‘what if.’
“I can and I will!” I said it out loud while doing dishes, picking up toys and even working out.
“Labor will be hard. I am afraid of the intensity.” Being aware of the thought, I told myself no again.
“I am created for this. I will do this.”
I know this almost sounds impossible, maybe even slightly out there. But I got to a place where I took captive every thought that flew through my mind. It if was a bad one, I tossed it and replaced it with truth. I also got to the point that I was very careful with the words I spoke. I was not going to speak negatively over this birth that I worked so hard to have a chance at. I knew my words were powerful, I could feel their effects in the air after I spoke them. And I wasn’t going there. Because I already dealt with them once. I got them out. Every thing I needed to get out, I did. And then I decided no more negativity. No more!
My thoughts had power. My words had power. I decided to think about what I wanted more than anything else. Not the bad things that could happen.
And you know what? It gave me peace. Confidence! Joy! Hope! And trust! A way I wanted to go into birth to meet my baby. And it was worth the discipline of not allowing myself to speak every thought I felt. Please don’t think I’m saying ignore your feelings! Get them out! But I wasn’t going to think the same negative thought over and over and allow it to beat me up. Feelings are real, but they aren’t always reality.
It was hard, but doable. And I’m so glad I did. Because today, I can use this same practice in life. How much better to walk around positive and with hope? Try it! I’m sure you will feel uplifted and encouraged.